The Egoistical Lioness

"My God...you're so BOSSY!"

That's the comment that I used to get from my friend Jee Jee whenever I am being authoritative to somebody. Honestly speaking, I don't feel that as an insult at all. In fact, I felt proud bout it. I love to be in control...of myself and everybody around me. My friend Jee Jee even gave me a nickname as "Bossy Bottom"...so WHAT?!

OK, a little bit history about me...

I was borned on 2nd of August and I am a typical Leo. Incase you don't know what's the behaviour of a typical Leo...just flip your sunday star to the first page of comic strip - Garfield. Yes, that "attitude" problematic cat does have some similarities with me. Lazy - sometimes; Fierce - sometimes; Funny - yeah...sometimes too; Adorable - I am!!! But not all the time; Stubborn - Most of the time; Egoistic??? - No comment.

A little bit more history about me...

I started off as a medical sales rep after I completed my Bachelor's degree. I didn't quite like the company initially but I stuck to it no matter what. I worked my ass off for the first few months and eventually the result showed. And for the first 2 years I've been in the company, I was crowned as the "Top salesman" (or girl) and I totally loved it. All the attention was on me. My CEO always picked me as an example to the rest of the sales team. Even my Manager lost to me.

Before I left that company, I had the privilege to enjoy few months as an Assistant Sales Manager. I had my own room and there was one subordinate directly under me. Everyone called me "ASM" and I felt proud bout it. I was proud because I worked my ass off to obtain that title. Obviously, there's no competition at all among the sales people.

OK...enough bout work...and history.

And then I met Y (OK, bear with me for another while) and we fell madly in love...through the Internet. I quitted my job and flew few thousand miles to see him and decided to move in and live with him. You see, we were passionate on the net, doesn't mean the passion will still be the same in real life. Everything started to change...including me. I started to see his true colours and he started to notice mine too.

The thing is, Y, is as egoistic as me. I like to control, and so does he. He's a Pisces and we are both fire. So fire and fire create bigger flame...eventually that flame burnt us down. It's suicide and someone has to splash water on it!

We both know perfectly well there are issues between us, but neither of us are making the first move to resolve them. We are too "ego" to take the first step. How SAD! Now I understand that the Leo inside me shouldn't be involved in a relationship with another "Leo". It will turn out to be a hideous cat fight!

And if you love someone, shouldn't you sacrifice your "ego" to the ones you love?

So whose move is it now? His or mine?